I can’t do this

I just had my second miscarriage. I went to the docotors with all the hope and faith that everything was fine. It was just a simple bleed and I will be fine. This wasn’t the case. I asked her why. Why would this keep happening to me. I have my son. I can have healthy pregnancies clearly. She was having a bad day herself. Couldn’t remember the month we were in. She was in a fluster herself. She just said it happens and it’s most likely my endometriosis and adenomyosis. I have a specialist appointment next Monday. I just can’t even deal with this right now. My heart is broken for what I thought I had and don’t anymore. I’m devastated that I have to tell my husband when he gets home from work that we have yet again lost our baby. I will get through this. But for now I’m am terribly upset and need to vent.