I am in need of m advice plz

Please please don’t judge me or my story I just need opinions or advice 😞

So two weeks ago I ran out of birth control and haven’t been able to get a refill so am currently with no protection but have still been having sex with my bf using pull out method. Now, I know how risky the pull out method is okay, i knew from before hand I shouldn’t have been risking it if I didn’t want to get pregnant so don’t comment about that. Where I’m going with this is that one night, we were passionately getting into it and we climaxed together and he accidentally forgot to pull out and when he realized it was too late. It had slipped my mind and his and we didn’t realize until it was too late to get plan B. To top it off, it was on my supposed “fertile window” . I still need to wait a few more days to take a valid test but I’m thinking I’m for sure going to be pregnant so I’m trying to prepare. Now for those who are still reading, I’m finally getting to my point. What I need help with is this... I’m kind of considering abortion. Please don’t judge me or give me hate :c we are most definitely not in a place in our lives to have a baby. I’ve always been against abortion but I’ve never thought I’ll be going through this. I don’t have anything to support a baby but at the same time, I’ve always wanted a baby just not now. I just needed someone to help guide me I feel so many emotions.