Not so healthy before pregnancy...how to cope?

So, before I found out I was pregnant (about a month ago), I wasn’t in the best place in my life. I was drinking after work almost every day. I was on two types of anti-depressants and as needed anti-anxiety meds. I also was prescribed Percocet for a long-standing back injury. The moment I found out I was pregnant. I quit it all.

The OBGYN said, “You know if you’re stable on your anti-depressants we usually keep people on them throughout pregnancy, as well as, pain medication because you’re probably going to be in more pain the further along you get. You would just need to have your baby at a hospital that have an NAS unit”

I refuse to have my personal issues get in the way of my baby’s health, but that doesn’t mean I’m not a complete wreck.

Question is, is anyone else in the same boat? I feel so alone in this. I feel like I’m the only one that was on medications, not doing well mentally and drowning myself in unhealthy coping skills and it’s taking everything I have to change that. I cry almost every day from the hormones but I also know it’s my neurotransmitters and body chemistry going wild from the lack of all my unhealthy actions. I guess I’m just looking for ideas for other to-he’s on how they are coping or what is helping them or maybe not to feel so alone.