F^%* AF

It’s crazy to me how I can be sitting on the toilet.. bleeding like crazy...

Negative pregnancy test in hand.

And STILL try and convince myself that I could still be pregnant. After 22 months TTC, I thought this was it. I took my first round of letrozole, CD 5-9 and staring at 8DPO I had slight cramping and my boobs have been super sore for about 5 days now. Which NEVER happens before my period. I was convinced i was pregnant. It’s just so unfair. I never get period cramps and these ones are unbearable. When is it going to be my turn? I feel like my own body is fighting against me. It’s so unfair.😭 my husband and I are both AD Navy, and he leaves in 2 months to move to the west coast, and I’ll be on the East Coast for another year by myself. So maybe it’s for the best that we don’t have a baby right now. But the heart wants what it wants I guess. Sorry for the rant, I just feel so alone in this ttc process sometimes. 😢