Can’t get pregnant 😞

My husband and I decided in August of 2018 that we would try to have a baby then I decided to go back to school. And my husband and I agreed that I would get back on birth control. (Which was 6 months later) My grandmother died in February a couple of days before my class started so I missed my first day and then the very next week I had the flu. So missed another day of class and ended up having to drop the class. So I gave up on school and wanted to try again for a baby. Stop birth control on March 31st. I was 10 days late when I started my period. I was so excited before then because I thought omg could it seriously happen this easy! I just needed to vent I guess. I’ve been waiting for 3 years to start trying for a baby and I want it so bad but too impatient. Also I’ve been looking up symptoms I’ve been having before my periods and just on a regular basis and it all leads to cysts and I’m just afraid that there is a problem. I just wanted to let it out. My husband doesn’t want family to know because he wants to surprise them so I can’t really talk to anyone.