Scared and happy, mostly confused.

Last September I had a positive test. We were so happy and then it all came crashing down about a month later when we found out I had a blighted ovum. Working in the medical field and being practical I knew it meant there wasn’t a baby and my body wasn’t ready to support the egg that was fertilized. My OBGYN was amazing and I had to go through a chemical induced miscarriage. It lasted 21 days and although I tried to tell everyone I was fine, I wasn’t.

I had tracked my cycle and ovulation and started doing temperature tracks every morning.

I had myself so stressed.

We decided to try again in April (2019). I have spent the last 2 days on the couch with a stomach bug but I also couldn’t shake the feeling that something was different.

I haven’t had normal PMS symptoms and smells have been driving me crazy.

This time I decided I wasn’t going to stress myself out and if it happened it happened.

I took 4 tests today.

All 4 are positive.

Bam.

Just like that.

But I’m scared.

I’ve had ovulation pain in my left side for a week to 2 weeks now and I’m scared it’s a tubular pregnancy.

How do you move on from the bad thoughts?