Acne anxiety

Ok so like I’m a teenager, every teenager gets acne at some point but I swear most of my friends don’t. My acne gives me horrible anxiety bc it’s on my face, like while talking to anyone all the thoughts in my head are- are they looking at this new pimple? Gosh I must look disgusting.etc... I wash my face every day and try my best to maintain it but every time it seems to clear up boom the next week will suddenly be soo much worse. My best friend and I both have it so talking to each other helps a bit but our other friends are out here looking like glass. It doesn’t help that the guy I like has mostly great skin, most of the time I can’t even look up at him while we talk because I’m soo insecure. I feel bad because sometimes my best friend and I wish that all our blessed friends could experience acne to our degree for once, which is mean but it’s hard not to want others to feel your pain of waking up and skipping mirrors to avoid looking at yourself and discovering a new swollen red zit.