Ashamed

Guys I’m still in high school and I have a body count of 8....One was peer pressure and very unenjoyable and the other 7 was free will. The peer pressure one gave me yeast infection and the only reason I have many bodies is because I wanted to get over an ex. And one of my bodies put me on to weed....I don’t know I feel ashamed. Especially of myself and sometimes my boyfriend gets upset even though he ask me questions of my past...everyone knows I’m not a virgin cause somebody blasted my sex tape and airdropped it to the whole school no joke. My boyfriend forgave me of course and swore when he find out who did it....🤷🏾‍♀️ mostly I feel bad especially for my boyfriend he out here looking dumb but he still loves me unconditionally ❤️😔