The Difference After Abuse

I just wanted to share somewhere.

2 years ago, the abuse became directly physical. Not just, oh well I was pulling you here when the door shut on you or the yelling and degrading...

My flight or fight changed. He bit me while I tried to get him to stop yelling in front of our 2 month old because my mother accidentally splashed my husband with water and I didn't see it as a big deal. It sent him into an episode. This was 2017.

He had supervised visitation June 1, 2019, the same day this happened. I forgot why I felt on edge until I remembered the date. I sat here crying because all the horrible memories came back.

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Fast forward to June 3rd.

I spent most of the day worrying that the guy I've been talking to and have gotten feelings for was ghosting me. He was just busy at work, but if you have PTSD because of a relationship you know it doesn't just stop there. Then I got a package in the mail I didn't know was coming. Yes, SHIELD logos...

He sent me his old Avengers and Captain America shirts that I thought he was bringing. When I asked him why, he said he wanted to surprise me.

My ex would surprise me with things for his own gain or that wasn't even something that was me. And 2 years later, a guy is surprising me without asking and willing to take up the slack my son's father left.

Excuse me while I go cry 💜