14 week rollercoaster

It's been 14 weeks and I've avoided sex at all costs. I've been so worried and nervous after two miscarriages. I was mostly nervous because the thought of spotting terrified me. I decided today though that I couldn't keep doing this to my husband. Being pregnant is so scary after having those experiences. I also haven't posted on social media yet. It's another area that just stresses me out. My mom keeps telling me to have faith. But I'm just not ready yet. Just needed to get this off my chest and this seems like the safest place to share. ❤️