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Ok so without getting into exactly what this message is about (but once u read it I’m sure u will understand) can u tell me if it sounds like I’m being nasty, or trying to be hurtful? I really need criticism about this. I don’t want to come off bitchy, or nasty. I really just want it to be an eye opener.

If theres anything u would remove or fix please let me know 🙏🏼🙏🏼

“Hey auntie .

I know this might be very out of the blue, but theres a few things that have been really weighing on me. Its not sudden but for the most part I’ve tried to put it out of my head, but now that lucas is here it bothers me so much more and it hurts. While i CAN agree that after high school i wasn’t around much, i CANT take the blame solely because that wasn’t only on me. I personally don’t like to pop up on people and I’m not one to try to squeeze myself into things with people. With that being said, its been hard trying to feel like I’m part of the family, this has been always. With everyone. It always felt like i just got the invite just because. Yes this could definitely be on me, but it just doesn’t feel like i was ever really a watson. Now its worse because of social media, so i see when you guys celebrate things, or have lil get togethers here and there. It always felt like if i didn’t reach out its my fault that i wasn’t there, but from my point of view its a two way street. No one ever offered to come visit me, or offer a ride home, or a lift there. I didn’t start driving till 31, while everyone has been driving. I had lucas, and no one offered to come over but once, and yet no one came over. Everyone wanted to see him, but i had to bring him. I wouldn’t even be saying anything if it wasn’t for him. I never want him to grow up feeling the way i have, like I’m a burden, like i don’t belong. But seeing as he may very well an only child with no cousins from his dads side, i don’t want him to feel lonely growing up. I feel like if i don’t mention it now it may effect him in the future. I personally don’t know how to change things, i wish i had the answers on how to do things right but I don’t. Thats why I’m coming to you with this. You have always been open with everyone & everything, while I’m the opposite. Ive always felt so small in comparison to everyone else that its just made me shy away. I don’t want to be around and see everyone swoon over one baby while the other is just looked over, like when i was a kid. “