Resentful

I recently got married and because of my wife, decided with her to have a baby. I already have 2 and was finished. They are 21 and 17. I gave birth to a baby girl that I am soooo in love with. Our relationship is not what I expected. She’s not as googoogaga as I thought she would be. She tells me I’m spoiling her etc. Our sex life is null and void. There’s no affection. I feel like I’ve been bamboozled. I’m now 40 starting all over. I thank God for my baby girl, but me feelings toward “us” is dwindling. At this point I don’t know what we can do to get the fire back or if I even have the capacity to try. I hate feeling this way. But I’m really starting to resent this decision. Of course I don’t and will never treat my baby with anything but love because I am overjoyed to have her.

Deep sigh... this just seems too soon to feel like giving up

Heeeeelllp