Wish I could get over this


So long story short, I've never been able to give my boyfriend a blowjob to completion because I have a weird aversion to cum. Like if I see it I gag so much I end up throwing up. It sucks because I love giving him blowjobs and he loves getting them but I feel bad that I cant finish one completely and that if I let him finish on my boobs I end up getting sick. I really want to get over this but I have no idea how to do so 😖😥