It’s been two weeks

I’d kindly like to ask for no harsh judgment or comments. It’s been two weeks since the last time I looked up my boyfriend’s ex on social media. This is probably the longest I’ve gone this whole relationship. I know it’s very unhealthy and awful for my mental health.

This morning I woke up with a massive urge to and it was very difficult to distract myself and push the thought out of my head. She didn’t really bother me until she started trying to make advances towards him. He told her to stop and she did and that was the end of it. And that should have been the end of my worrying but it wasn’t.

I do struggle with some rather severe anxiety, especially when it comes to my confidence and self image. I am on medication and getting the help I need now. And although two weeks is not long for a 5 month relationship, it’s better than I’ve done in the past and I’m honestly quite proud of myself.

I absolutely hate that I still get these urges and that it somehow works it’s way to the forefront of my mind. But, I’m working to accept that it is a process and that I just need to take it one day at a time. Thank you for reading.