I NEED ANSWERS

To say the least, these last few weeks have been an emotional nightmare for me. I’m a first time mama to a wonderful almost 11 month old, and my husband and I are eager to grow our little family, so we are actively trying to conceive. I struggle with PCOS, so my doctor had put me on the pill for a few months to “calm down my ovaries”. Fast forward to stopping the pill to begin trying. I had every possible symptom I could remember from my first pregnancy, and just felt in my soul that I was pregnant. 2 days before my anticipated period I got a VVVVFL. Then proceeded to get 3 more VVVVVVFLs testing every other day afterwards. I felt eery when they weren’t getting any darker like they had with my first pregnancy. Still hadn’t gotten the chance to see my doctor. So I waited a full week to test again and got a BFN. At this point I was starting to doubt if those tests were even valid. But I’ve still had no normal signs of a period, instead I’ve had very inconsistent streaks of blood in clear CM. Only when I wipe, and not even every time I use the restroom. Just very inconsistent and incredibly light. It’s not something I’ve ever had before. So I honestly just don’t know what to make of any of this and it’s emotionally draining me. I’m waiting on an appointment with my doctor and desperate for any kind of insight or clarity from someone who might has experienced the same thing. Thank you for taking the time to read this. I welcome any positive thoughts and baby dust. I’m still hopeful for our next little blessing. I just hope I can get some answers, soon.