Saw baby today in my underwear

Brittany โ€ข ๐Ÿ‘ผ๐Ÿผ10.12.19;๐Ÿ‘ผ๐Ÿผ 6.28.19;๐Ÿ‘ผ๐Ÿผ 11.15.19

I passed the baby this morning. I am completely devastated. Idk what to do with him/her. I took a photo of the baby on my sanitary pad. I cannot throw my baby in the trash. What do I do? And can someone edit the photo for me so its just my baby and not my bloody pad? ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ‘ผ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป