Struggling in my mind about my marriage

AJ • Married to my best friend, and together we have two beautiful babies. Glory to God for everything.

Let me start by saying I love my husband. He is a great dad to our son, he’s a provider (as am I, I make the same amount of money). I’ve always been Christian, but have just recently found a church that I absolutely LOVE & have recently became a member. I’ve started serving & helping in the child care as well & I’m loving it so much. I’m trying to hard to become a better person and not judge or be rude. My husband doesn’t go to church with us, no huge deal, I pray for him & he’s slowly coming around and comes to the “big days” at church with us... however, I’ve started realizing just how hateful my husband is. It’s like he constantly has something ugly and or rude to say about almost anyone or anything. & it’s really bothering me. I’ve been struggling in my mind and heart lately about what to do. I’ve spoke with him multiple times explaining my feelings & sometimes he listens, but other times he says that I’m “high & mighty” since starting church. Which really hurts because I’m not “judging” him, I’m just really concerned with the hate in him. I’m not saying he’s hateful to me or my son, but he’s just not the nicest & it’s really bugging me.

I don’t know what I’m looking for; prayers, sympathy, advice, or maybe just getting this off of my chest to people who don’t know him and won’t hold this against him.

Thanks for reading if you read to the end.

❤️