Abortion or not...

so i’ve just found it i’m pregnant, around 4 weeks. This would be my second baby and my partner and i never really tried nor did we use protection it was a see what happens kind of thing, he said he wanted a baby and i kinda did a little too. But my mental health has been getting horrible and a few weeks ago i was extremely suicidal and almost tried to kill

myself until my partner found me. I just don’t know if it’s a good idea to have another baby when i’m still suicidal but at the same time i deep down want another baby and i’m scared i’m gonna regret it, or that it may make my mental health worse cause i’d be sad with myself or that i might not be able to fall pregnant again ( dumb i know ). I just need some advice on what others would do if you were or have been in my position. My emotions are just everywhere and i don’t know what to do 😭