Body count ... super high

So like it’s a really weird situation. But this year and a half I went through a really bad depressive episode and slept with like 13 people because I thought it would fill a void. I don’t have any STDs or anything and I got the help that I needed. I like took a break from dating but there’s this guy that I really wanna date and I’m really scared my body count seems gross. I’m very ashamed of it and I wish that I got help a lot sooner. Really honestly what should I even do?