Erase chapters.

Do some of yall ever wish yall could turn back the hands of time and just completely erase someone from your life? Even if it means you could possibly lose something as precious as a child? Currently pregnant with our 2nd baby and I just found out he cheated on me this past weekend. Come to find out shes the girl he brought with his friend to his moms for the bbq over there. I've tried talking to him about it and he just says for me to get out his face. This makes our 2nd but my 3rd. I'm jobless and currently on bedrest. I sometimes just wish I could go back and stop myself from ever talking to him in the first place. I feel my kids deserve a better father and better then what I can give them. I live in an oilfield town and let me tell you. Single mom with 3 kids. There's just no I'd be able to make it on my own. Rent for a 3 bedroom 2 bath is $1400. Living here is expensive.