Can I find love.?💔 I need honesty.😞

..I am a crossdresser and I do lots of masculine jobs. For example I am a certified welder. Right now I am currently a blacksmith in training. I am fairly petite, in fact I surprise every male i come encounter with. Do to me only having small muscles yet being able to pull my weight of work plus. 💪

I am a gentleman..see I treat others with respect and class...yet I think I scare off potential suitors do to the fact I cross dress. I don't cross dress all the time ..I just look really tomboy and sometimes I do try to look feminine. See doing so gives me lots of anxiety and my family dose not understand that. So I just stopped.

In other words I am a straight female who love crossdressing..would a man want me?.😷 ..I am a shy human who blushes easily. I am very blunt and to the point. I love cuddling. I just want to feel loved and protected. I just want to be treated with as much kindness as I give others. 😢.