Hi girls and women out there 😘

The title may be a little misleading, we don't have a baby yet. We have been ttc for our first for almost 2 years now and even though I have seen many of you going trough this for much longer, I do feel bad, every month I'm hoping it will be our month. And every month AF shows up.

If this month isn't our month we will have our parts checked. Even though I've had 2 inside echo's (don't know what they are called in english) and had all my bloodwork and vaccines checked and done before we started trying. We're having it all checked.

My S. O. has got 3 kids already and I love them like they would be my own, but they aren't.

And for me having a baby is feeling the life grow inside of me, giving birth to it, holding it for the very first time, nursing my baby, seeing what our miracle grows up like, what he or she will look like, how our parenting will make him or her a good person 😍

I want it all 💕

I'm not sure if this one is normal but I absolutely feel like I need to pass on my DNA, is that a weird thing?

But I come here for talks because my SO doesn't always understand about me wanting to be pregnant so bad because with his ex they fell pregnant like thesame month of trying. And now he is not as excited/anxious as I am because he already has kids. I think that is kind of normal, I think you can never feel thesame way for the 4th baby as you will feel for your first.

But adoption is never an option because if that were the case wouldn't I be happy with having his kids around? Don't get me wrong, I am, but I also want to be a mom myself and an adoption baby would be exactly thesame as loving his kids.

<a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> or sperm donor's are never an option because my bf doesn't want to go to those lenghts, and I can understand that. And his first girlfriend cheated on him, had a daughter of someone else who he has raised as his own untill it all came crashing down, that that wasn't his daughter so I get that as well.

So I'm just sitting here.. Hoping.. For our little miracle just to make an appearance naturally.