I'm not reposting this for clout I just need some help: guys what I meant by "help" I meant I need advice on how I can get through this

UPDATE: I tried to take some of your advice I tried to take the meds I can't they make me feel tired and sick all the time I tried going to therapy but my therapist is a fucking dickwad you guys said that he would listen to my problems he always tells my to get over it or I'm just being a baby. I did get out of the mental hospital and now I'm back in my depression state where I just want to do things to myself all the time I've been trying to get help I really have I'm sorry