Possible relapse?

Some bad stuff been happening recently and I’ve been wanting to badly cut myself. I’m crying as I write this. I’m breaking and I’m so tired of all the bad things happening and I feel like I’m going to relapse. I’ve been clean from a year and a month but I so badly want to and I don’t know what to do. I was doing better I thought but all the stuff is crashing down and hitting me all at once