Please help.

Everything I’m about to type, I’ve told my boyfriend. He doesn’t worry and doesn’t think what I’ve done is wrong at all. I’ve always had a hard time wondering if I’m genuinely a bad person or if I’m overthinking. I don’t have any males on any social media. I play online video games, and got some male friends from there that I play games with. I had a friend compliment my name, and ask about my job and talk about music etc. I do this with my female friends too.

recently I have felt so guilty for having conversations with people. Even though there is no flirting, unless you consider someone complimenting my name flirting. On 4th of July me and my brothers got off a ride and the guy operating it was telling us how he has to go next week and set it all up again and we just talked about that for 2 minutes tops, brothers right next to me. I told my brother I felt guilt for that. He asked why, I told him I felt I talked to long and he laughed saying that I didn’t. My boyfriend always tells me I have a big heart and I’m a good person. I’m having a hard time seeing it.

I feel like I emotionally cheat when I have a basic conversation or what I do/don’t say or do. I never give anyone my number or snap etc. I don’t send anyone pictures but I still feel like a hoe. Why.. has anyone else felt this way? I feel crazy. Like I’m always doing something wrong. I feel so low and it may sound dramatic, but it makes me feel so worthless and suicidal because I can’t calm my mind down.