Need....something?

I never know how to start these things off, do I say hey, do I just get to it? 🤷🏼‍♀️

Basically, I went through a horribly, emotionally traumatic relationship about two years ago. I was a sophomore/junior in high school (I’m now 19 and in college). It wasn’t a long relationship but the effects are still very much evident.

I’ve been texting this guy for the past few days, that I use to go to middle school with. Funny how the past can come back. He’s planning on moving to my state, about two hours away from my city. He’s got a house taken care of and has shipping plans for his car already. He’s insisting that I go on a date with him and keeps being flirty and joking about how “I don’t know it yet but I’m already stuck” and stuff like that. He’s not being pushy in any way, just really flirty.

Anyway, sorry this is longer than I was expecting. Basically, I’ve been very mentally unavailable in the dating apartment since my last relationship. As much as it scared me to put myself out there, I’ve now become embarrassed on my lack of experience. My ex was the only person I’ve kissed, and we did some touching but never anything serious or unclothed. As a 19 year old, I know I’m young and dont need to rush, but with this society I’m pressured to have already been doing things I have no idea how to do. My mom raised me very well so I keep everything to a very high standard, which would by why I never kissed anyone until I was 16 and ignored everyone in middle school pressuring me to.

Basically I’m not sure what I’m here for, whether that’s advice or some sort of acceptance or comfort, but I just feel like this mentality is becoming an issue for both my age and my well being. I’m so terrified to be with a man again, I don’t trust any of them just because of one person and I’m not sure how to “have fun” with them or relax about it.

Is it uncommon for a 19 year old to have only kissed one person? Am I falling behind? Is this completely normal? How do I overcome this??