I need some motivation

Ever since I had an ectopic last year I have never been the same. I don’t feel myself, I had a chemical 3 months ago and I’m currently going thru a miscarriage. I feel so hopeless, I feel so ugly and overweight. I don’t have the energy or motivation I used to have. I feel so unattractive to my husband I feel worthless cuz I haven’t been able to have a baby. I just want to run away and renew myself. Anyone ever been in the same situation? What did you do? I pray to God to help me but I just feel like things are not getting better.