Mental health struggle rant

For probably about 4/5 years I’ve felt like I struggle with mental health issues such as anxiety and seasonal depression but I will never actually go to the doctors to get tested or sort it out, I don’t know if it’s just me but I feel like if I go and they say that there’s nothing wrong with me, I don’t know what I’d actually do, as much as I don’t want there to be anything wrong, I’d feel worse and like I was over reacting to everything if I wasn’t diagnosed. I don’t talk about it much, my friends know the most and are the ones who have said they think I have SAD and try to help me out. My parents don’t exactly help the situation as I said I wanted to go to the doctors in a moment of confidence and nothing else has been said about it, that was around 2 months ago. It really affects me and I really don’t know what to do, like I desperately need to get a job but I physically can’t bring myself to do it because I’d be by myself and have to meet new people, and that scares the life out of me. Anyone have any tips because I’m bored of it at this point and just want to be confident like everyone else I know and be happy 🥴😴