You give me a reason

No better way to spend my Saturday night.

My Caspian, as I sing you your favorite “Lullaby” and stroke your fat little cheeks, you grab at my mouth and nose and stare deep into my eyes. I feel so much pressure to be the best mom I can be, the look in your eyes is... intimidating. You look at me with so much love, trust and admiration even though I already feel like a failure to you. You give me a reason, a reason to smile and live. Because of you and your sister I wake up daily.

Mommy loves you both and I promise to make y’all proud to call me your mother.