four months postpartum and I might be pregnant **update**

And. I. Am. Freaking. Out.

Not even bothering to take a home test but going to the doctor on Thursday. Guys, I don’t know what I’m going to do if I actually am. But hopefully I’m not. Maybe I’m just hormonal and nervous. This would seriously be the immaculate conception if I am pregnant cos my husband hasn’t cum inside me not once since having our daughter in April. That’s a firm no from me because I know how fertile I am post pregnancy. PLEASE GOD. I’m gonna lose it.

Anyone else here get pregnant really fast again after a baby? I don’t know how my body will handle this if I am. Or my wallet. Or my two bedroom house. I have enough on my plate with this one.

UPDATE:

I have learned three things in the last 48 hours:

1) I am not pregnant and,

2) breastfeeding is fucking w my cycle and,

3) Condoms are more expensive than I remembered them being when I was in high school.