I don’t know but when I smoke it makes me feel better about myself. I feel beautiful! It makes me feel like when my husband made me feel beautiful in the beginning of our relationship. He made me feel so bomb so beautiful so damn pretty! But now all that has changed. I’m not saying he’s a bad man or person. I just wish I can erase some things from my memory. Ever since I caught he looking at other chicks that’s when my low self esteem went even lower.... to some people that’s normal yes it is but I find it vary disrespectful when he does it in front of you. And then try’s to deny it 🙄. Anyways he try’s to make me feel beautiful again I know he try’s so hard. But I just can’t seem to believe him anymore. And now the only thing that makes me feel beautiful again is smoking weed. That’s one of the reasons why I love to smoke.