PLEASE DONT JUDGE

please don’t say I’m uneducated or anything dumb like that. I’m just generally curious on what’s going on. To start of my periods have always been irregular my whole life. So it’s hard to tell when they come. I usually get them at the end of the month.

I noticed for the past few days I’ve had back pain, cramping, and white discharge and sore boobs. I was searching these symptoms and the first thing that popped up was “pregnant” I was freaking out so I bought tests and they both came up negative. I feel so bloated and been up all night overthinking and having BAD anxiety. I’ve never had sex.. but I’ve done other sexual things with my boyfriend such as oral sex, grinding and rubbing against his penis in thongs. Everyone tells me that “oh you can’t get pregnant” I understand but I am here still stressing and making myself think I’m pregnant and believing it.... I’m sooooooo stressed every night I’m so scared. What’s going on? I just wish I had my period