do i tell him

a year ago i was aggressively raped.. now i am in a fairly new relationship and i don’t want to ruin it. i’ve gone down on him but that’s as far as it’s gotten, i’m worried that if we start anything farther than that i’ll freak out and scare him away. so do i tell him my past and hope he’s okay with it ? or do i keep it a secret and hope that i don’t have a ptsd episode (i have had an episode in the past because of

the trauma)

please help me ! i really like him and i don’t wanna ruin it