Having a bad day? Please share

Ok so i woke up to my husbands alarm at 330am (when he has to get up for work) then from then til 450 I couldn't sleep bc I could feel my body ovulating and my husband and i have been fighting (he had forgotten our anniversary and refused to apologize) and mad at each other for a few days thus missing our chance to try for baby2 (we have one 17 month old which took one year and one miscarriage to get. We already failed three times for baby#2). So whole time i was pissed off cuz we lost this month.

Then suddenly from the corner of my eye i see something black moving. Couldn't be my hair, i thought. Im not moving. I look over and guess what????? Cockroach on the bed crawling away from me and towards my baby!!!! Wtf? We are super clean. How???? And the bed???? The baby????? So i race up to grab something. Normally i use the vacuum for bugs cuz im too scared to get close but baby was sleeping so i just grabbed a glass lid from the kitchen. By the time i got back, it was on the carpet and i caught it!!!!

But due to all the commotion, i woke up the baby so I just left the lid on the cockroach and tried to help my baby fall asleep again. In the beginning I could hear the mofo running around in the lid but suddenly the noise stopped. My heart stopped too. Is it out????? Is it dead????

But I couldn't look. I spent the next hr 5-6 am helping baby fall asleep as im freaking out. I let him suck on my nipple for most of the time too.

At 610 I finally could get up and lo n behold the mofo somehowww (how??????) escaped my glass lid. Im dyinggggggg.

Needless to say I couldn't fall back asleep. All that was in my head was the missed chance to try for baby#2 again and how long we would have to struggle again; the dammmmmm cockroach and how it almost ate my baby and how I failed at my attempt to murder the mofo and how i need to commit cockroach genocide; how my baby almost suctioned off my nipple; and how ultimately all this was for nothing-my baby got woken up but the mofo ended up escaping after all-could've just let the mofo go without waking up the baby.

Anyone else having a shitty day?? Please share to remind me that other good human beings have to suffer in this realm of samsara too.

Or any advice? Whether ttc advice or cockroach genocide advice?

For too many reasons I can't share this story with anyone i know. The anonymity on this app is very comforting and having the support of ladies here despite my lack of family and friends has been incredibly meaningful.