So my boyfriend and I have been together for 6 years in September. We have a two year old son. For the most part, things are great, but most of the time they're great only if he has weed. If he runs out hes angry and miserable and takes it out on everyone. For example, today his dealer didn't come on time and he was in a bleh mood. It was dinner time so we went out to get some. He insisted he didn't want anything because he wasn't hungry, so I said "are you sure? Maybe I'll get you something anyway in case you're hungry later". That's when he yelled "I said I dont want anything, how many times do I have to repeat myself?" So I was like whatever and went to get food with my son. When we came home to eat, he assumed I bought him something (are you dumb?) But anyway, I didn't. I asked if he wanted to share and he said "fuck you" and went downstairs.

But it doesn't end there. Hes like this a lot. And he yells and swears at me in front of our son over literally a crumb on the floor and calls me a dirty pig. He calls me annoying all the time and swears at me. I tell him nicely not to, especially in front of our son, and it makes it worse. It's gotten so bad I have hurt him because I was so angry. 3 incidences he has put his face right up to mine and started yelling and swearing at me in front of our son until he starts crying. In the heat of the moment I'll slap him or scratch him which theres no excuse for, but in the moment I'm so angry that hes making my son cry and witness him do this.

Then when I say I'm leaving he starts yelling or crying and saying things like "I dont care he won't have a dad then, I'll kill myself". Then he'll eventually apologize and go back to his normal self. Its honestly a cycle and I feel trapped. And I always have to pretend I'm happy around him because if I have a small tone (from normal parenting exhaustion because he rarely helps) he gets angry at me. It's very exhausting and I feel like a zombie. Sorry for the rant. I want to do what's best for my son