Am I terrible?

I just was offered an second interview (working outside of home) but in my case I thought I would have someone reliable to watch my 6, 7, & 2 month old, come to realize I don't. My daughters go to elementary school and my son is breastfed. Their father is the only who can watch them but in my case he likes to drop my kids off often and have them with people that aren't responsible around my kids and he slacks when it comes to picking up/dropping the kids off on time and he doesn't see the importance of homework.

I'm currently in process of starting my own business making crafts and selling them online and another option I have is working at home as a CSR that way I'll be in charge of helping him do those things and I'll know where my kids are at all times.

I just want my kids safe and educated like any other parent would.

Am I wrong?