I don’t know

Ladies! I’ve been married for 5 year and been with my husband and 1 other guy ever in my life. I honestly don’t know if I’ve ever had an orgasm 😬 My husband gets off every time but I really don’t think I have. I feel so retard when I ask this but what do I do to help me? We play with toys, he goes down on my and we mess around before which I LOVE. How do I know if I orgasm?? And what can I do to get myself there?!

Again I feel like an idiot asking this 🙄