Feeling Hopeless

Fxxking Sxxt Fxxk.... I guess God said it's not time to keep trying to get pregnant because right as we were about to go see an obgyn my insurance got cut off and my husband cant put me on anything until he get his sxxt right with the irs so I'm hurt and devastated today... I've waited 13 years for God to say it's my turn and this time I just knew everything would go right..

Is there a light at the end cause ion see it no more.... I'm so broken over this...