I feel so inadequate

I had a repeat c section 11 weeks ago. Both c sections were extremely painful to me. I believe I managed better the second time around, although the recovery time was longer than the first.

My friend had her (first) c section last week. I went to visit her at the hospital, knowing how painful it was, asked her how she doing. First of all, she looked fantastic. Then she told me she was good/okay, and that she was fine - as if it was nothing.

I was shocked. Happy for her that she is doing so well but shocked that I was in so much pain - so much pain I cried uncontrollably.

Then I started to feel inadequate. Why was I in that much pain? Why is she not? What’s wrong with me? Was I not strong enough?

She was so happy. And I remember my experiences to be so different. While still at the hospital, I was overwhelmed, full of anxiety; basically I was not overjoyed or over the moon for the new baby like she was.

Is it just me? That the c section was only so much painful to me? That I could hardly move, get up and out of bed?

Please tell me I am not a big wuss!