Ready to be done!

Good lord, this is hard!

My feet, hands and face are swollen, my head is throbbing, I'm seeing sparkles. Blood pressure is fine, but they are thinking I might be getting precursor signs to preeclampsia and I'm freaking out. My sister had it, and my nephew came at 34 weeks. Im 31 weeks Wednesday.

I feel awful, but part of me is saying, ok let it happen? Why? I'm hot, tired, it hurts to walk, breathe, sleep, eat, and do anything but lay down all day. At the same time, I am praying to God, that she stays put because I couldn't handle seeing her in NICU.

I need prayers please. I am truly scared.