Feel so alone

If Keep breaking down in tears. I’m 11 weeks post pardum.I kept telling my midwife and doctor that my bowel movements were really painful and I was just told to keep soldiering on and keep taking my stool softener. The pain got so bad on the long weekend I went to a walk in clinic. I’ve been diagnosed with an anal fissure. Since then I used suppositories and in 4 days it went away. Then a week ago it came back and I got the suppositories again but the pain is hard to deal with. I couldn’t sit up to nurse my baby until yesterday. I can’t go out and walk. All that feels good is to lay down in bed. It’s getting to me emotionally. All my friends that have had babies after me are way more active. I’m increasing my fiber food and now taking Metamucil, plenty of water. I can’t lift the car seat because it hurts. I feel so alone. I just want to heal. Did you ever have anything like this?