Lost and confused and a mess, help?

Hello,

I am almost always an emotionally reliable person, I am logical and I never get worked up in my emotions, I have tactics to calm my anxiety. But this past week I have been through the ringer. I am an entire mess and my life is seemingly wrecked.

6 months ago I had a missed miscarriage at 9 weeks pregnant. Blessedly, my husband and I managed to conceive again in July. For the past week and a half I have been spotting this brown discharge which my doctor said is fine, it’s old blood and my cervix is closed and she saw no blood coming from the seams. I am currently just a little over 8 weeks pregnant now. I had my first ultrasound last Wednesday and they saw a gestational sac that measured 6 weeks and 1 day. There were no blood clots, no pockets of blood, there was nothing in my uterus that was worrisome, they just said I was earlier than they thought and that my ovulation days were probably screwed up from the miscarriage. My next ultrasound is on sept. 5. But I am freaking out that I won’t make it to that day.

Since having the trans vaginal ultrasound, my brown spotting (which my doctor said was happening due to a mild yeast infection) has now turned red, sometimes bright red, sometimes brown, sometimes a rusty, brownish, red color. Almost nothing transfers to my pad, almost nothing ends up in the toilet, the blood is only there when I wipe.

I have no pain with it, no extreme cramping like the cramps that accompany a miscarriage, I don’t even fill one pad up through the whole day.

I spoke to a doctor yesterday who said it does not sound like a miscarriage and that the ultrasound wand probably irritated the cervix and the infection but I can’t stop freaking out. Has anyone else bled while pregnant and had a healthy baby?

They always say God won’t give us more than we can handle and I know for a fact that I can’t handle another loss.

Please help.