Unsupportive Family or Bad Child?

Hey guys, I’m a junior in high school. Some things I’ve been through have caused me to mature quicker than most people around me, but I still consider myself a good kid. I’ve never smoked or drank, I think vaping is dumb (the trend around school lol). Also, not that it matters but I’ve only had sex with one person and we’ve been in a relationship for three years, keep that in mind as I tell the story. SO! Freshman year I was really insecure about my body. I got sexually assaulted that year and afterwards suffered from very severe depression. Although my parents weren’t really supportive, (blamed me for the incident), they got me a therapist. I learned that what happened wasn’t my fault and I learned about self love and happiness. Ever since then I’ve been pretty mature. I’d consider myself “happy” today. I know how to deal with my depression and anxiety, I know my triggers, etc. I learned all of that with zero support from my mom and dad. Anyways, lately I’ve been wearing things that make me feel beautiful. I’ve gotten into makeup and just reached a high. I’ve never felt so beautiful and confident.

Those are literally the only two tube tops I’ve ever worn considering I’ve been so insecure about my shoulders/collarbone area. Both of those pictures are recent. However, whenever I wear these things my mom shames me. She says I look “stank” and “skanky”. I don’t understand how. I know myself, I know just how modest I am and how much I love and respect my body (which is what leads us back to the 1 body count). She says I don’t respect myself if I’m showing that much. It just makes me feel sad because I was so proud of myself for finally being able to step out the house with those shirts and she just beats me down and makes me feel insecure all over again. I just don’t what to do. Is it really too much? I know there’s skin showing but I like to think that what I wear shouldn’t define me, I literally respect myself so much. Not to mention she has no room to talk, my dad has been a cheater my entire life and it’s very well known and she always goes back. Even when he had a girlfriend.. but that’s not my business. I really don’t even know what this is about, I’m sorry it’s so jumbled together. I just needed to rant. Do any of you have some advice for me?