Cancel day care... couldn't give up my baby

So before I was pregnant, I looked at day care places that take babies at 8 weeks. Well, 4 weeks PP, I couldn't give him up. Felt like no one will care to know why he is crying. I had all these sooth tactics that I know they wouldn't do. There are things he liked which am not sure someone paid would want to do for him. Then I feared him being left to cry it out in case the day care was overwhelmed with kids. Then the breast feeding and pumping was going to be cumbersome. Given that day care price was going to be half my salary, it just didn't seem worth doing. Now I will live on my maternity leave money which is 60% of what I used to earn for a year...then we shall see the rest next year.

Now 10 weeks PP and am home withy boy. He is growing. And keeping me busy. And nurturing him. Some days I wonder if am just being lazy n not working...if I made a good choice. Do any mothers feel like this?