Am I being selfish?

So, a very close friend of mine recently had her first baby. I am so happy for her and her husband and this little family that they’ve made together. When I went to see her and the baby I felt a sense of guilt because my husband and I have been trying for some time now with no luck. I’ve been struggling with endometriosis for a little over 2 years and have been trying for over a year. I was so happy for her, there’s no doubt about that, but I feel guilty because I have yet to get pregnant. A lot of my friends have begun to have children and start families, and I constantly get the question from close family “so, when will we be getting a grand baby/ niece/ nephew/ great grand baby.” It’s really hits me hard because it’s a struggle for us to get pregnant.

I’ve had so many people to tell me that if we just didn’t try that it would happen or if we ate this or drank that, we would easily get pregnant. All of my friends and close family got pregnant on accident, and I feel that it’s different when you chart bbt, CM, constantly taking pills, having sex only on certain days (even outside the fertile window) and still being let down when AF shows up and another month is wasted on pregnancy tests and our hopes get let down when we get them too high.

I may be acting selfish, but I just wish that it would be our turn to finally say that we’re expecting.