Feeling like a failure

Julianne

I’m a full time working mom. I work 12 hour rotating shifts, and my commute is an hour away. My husband also works shift work but sees our daughter every day with how his shifts work. My daughter will literally cry if I hold her when he’s home. She disregards me completely. She pushes me away, and goes to him over me always. I had pretty severe postpartum depression and anxiety and I can’t help but feel terrible again like she doesn’t like me being her mom. I know she’s young (1.5), but this is when we should be bonding, and building our foundation. Anyone go through anything similar?