I spent most of the day in the ER because I think I’m having another miscarriage. I’ve had two other miscarriages and I’m pregnant again. I make 6 weeks tomorrow, but yesterday I started spotting. It’s not heavy, but in my heart it feels like a miscarriage. I went to the ER to get an ultrasound and they say it’s small but they do see a pregnancy. They also told me my hCG levels are low. They couldn’t confirm which makes it even harder. I have to go back to my doctor in 2-3 days to check my hCG levels again. This is torture. I am so sad and disillusioned. How many times will I have to go through this before I have a baby? Will I ever have a baby? This is such a lonely journey. Suffering in silence and putting on a fake smile for the world.