Accepting my non-white skin tone.

As a little girl I often dreamt of being beautiful like all the other girls... But my mind was distorted by society. In order to be beautiful I thought I had to be white and porcelain. I’m mixed, and I happen to have got my mothers skin while my siblings got my dads (white). I envied them growing up. Almost all my life I had ONE unrealistic beauty standard for myself and that was to be white. All I saw were white women in magazines and on tv and I told myself “I want to look like that!” even though I knew that was impossible. Yes, I acknowledged how pretty all all sorts of skin tones were, but I never saw beauty when it came to mine.

I’m 18 now and I still struggle with accepting myself. Sometimes I’m so proud of the color I share with other women and I can’t get enough of what a Latina babe I am! But today is one of those days where I envy my siblings yet again.

I’m still trying, and I’m not giving up, but sometimes it’s hard.

Has anyone else struggled with this?