Dont know how to feel..

I guess I'm writing this here because I feel like if i write it out and get it off my chest I'll some what be able to move on (well that's what I'm hoping lol) anyway..

Back in 2015 I found out I was pregnant, little bit shocked, little bit scared, just a little bit of everything really but this baby was so so loved already! Weeks went by and everything for me was normal, kept getting a little niggle, not so much a pain or anything in my right side, but rung the doctor on two occasions just to be sure with it being my first pregnancy and all that.. another week went by still had that little niggle pain alongside shoulder tip pain and that was awful! So I rung the doctor again and explained everything and they sent me straight to hospital, was scanned etc and within minutes i was rushed to emergency surgery as I was having an ectopic pregnancy.. everything went so so fast and I didn't have time to process anything to be honest, I didn't even cry I was in that much shock, the doctors referred to me as a 'ticking time bomb' and that at any moment my tube was probably about to rupture. Had surgery and woke up in my hospital room, drozy and still not really aware of what happened.. it wasnt until I was discharged from hospital everything hit me.. when I say I was at rock bottom I mean I was at rock bottom, life to me didn't seem all that great anymore and the question 'why me' was frequently asked! I went into severe depression after that! It may have been in 2015 but to me i relive that day every day! I have gradually come to terms with everything and have got myself back in a good place and am some what happy!

But here's my issue, which I need advice on the situation! After everything my best friend made a comment to me a while back and I literally can not get it out of my head,

'when you lost the baby you were craving abit of attention weren't you?'

I didn't even respond to that because I was absolutely disgusted!

I can honestly say what I went through was completely kept in the family and of course my best friend was aware.. I did not use my baby loss as an attention seeking/feel sorry for me situation! And I am utterly heartbroken she even said that! Even typing this out is making me annoyed, to imply I was lapping up all the attention from people because of what had happened!

She is now expecting (7weeks) and as happy as I am for her that comment has been playing in my mind since the day and hour it was said! Do I say something to her or try and let it go? I mean she is pregnant now and wants me to be involved (no baby daddy in the picture) and i dont want to drag things up especially now that she has her own little one in there! All I can think in the back of my mind is, that comment you said to me I hope you dont have to go through pain or loss like that ever! I love her like a sister and wouldn't hurt her for the world but I am sickened at that comment!

I guess I'm a little all over the place, a pregnancy announcement always hits home for me!

Sorry for the long post! 💜