OMG AGAIN

So today at 4:00am I was having contractions. They weren’t bad so I just put them off to the side and waited alittle and went back to sleep. Well woke up and they started at 10:00 but they were worse I wanted to wait it out drink something and maybe try to eat something. Well things took a turn they got so bad that every time I stood I went into one. So I told my fiancé. And he said did I call the doc I said yep. They told me just to go in. So since I am already 4 centimeters dilated and 80% effaced and -2 I’m thinking maybe this is time I get to meet my boy. Well we get to the hospital go to triage they check me and I’m the same but having contractions every 5 minutes so they said wait 2 hours to check again so I wait they come back the contractions are much worse she checked me and I’m 4 1/2 centimeters now so I get sent to L&D and I’m thinking it’s finally time. Well I get there everything gets set up and I wait 2 hours a doctor comes in and says she is going to check me. God I hate being checked but I said ok and I’m now 5 centimeters. My contractions are every 3 minutes apart and hurt like hell they ask what do I want for pain I say nothing yet I’ll wait to see if this is the real thing. So I wait and wait and wait. My contractions slow down but hurt not as much and then I get thirsty so I asked my nurse for some apple juice she gave me some and boom my contractions are now every minute apart I don’t want an epidural so I got newban and finally going to be able to get some sleep but they checked me and no change I’m thinking great all that pain for nothing. This is my 2nd time going into false labor I feel horrible I feel like I’m lying to my sisters-in-law she gets so happy and I feel bad for my fiancé he really wants to meet his son. But I guess he just wants to play with mommy he wants to make me think he’s about to come but he doesn’t. Well I guess it’s fine he didn’t because I’m 36 weeks today but the doctor said he would be able to come home with us because I had the shots at 29 weeks for his lungs. Well I’m gonna try and rest before this medicine goes away